That's right there is definitely a disturbance in the force that makes up Cassie land. That disturbance is the continual presence of feelings! I feel like the Grinch when his heart starts to grow two sizes! People don't realize how mind blowing this whole process is! I am having emotions...a lot. The emotion of today is....sad. And happy, thankful, shock, joy....only a girl, right? Well you see the cause of my current disturbance of feelings (this whole feeling thing started with my mission...) is that tomorrow is my last day of work! Who knew this would hurt me so! Three weeks ago when I gave them my three weeks notice I was so excited to escape the world of little children who are stronger than me....but now..............................................a sad soul is what I have.
Who knew that my little hoodlum of a five year could be so fantastic. He really is though. There may be times where I want to sit on him, push him in the snow, or tickle him until he cries, but these moments are becoming fewer and fewer! My child is learning!!!!!!! Just in time fore me to leave him....
These last two weeks have been so great. He listens to me, plays with me, and he even kinda likes me. The time has flown by at work and I have loved every minute of it. That little blue eyed, blonde, freckle faced kid is stealing my heart. He is ridiculously cute. I'd show you a picture, but that would be breaking the law so....imagine it. We legit though have been having the best time.
Sometimes that little boy of mine is so sweet! He will make Valentines for kids who don't have friends, share his cupcake with his best friend, look for the pink clouds everyday, play with puppies, talk football, and so many more precious moments. Oh what a blessing our little children. I will even miss some of the random sassy things that he says.
He is also ridiculously smart. Everyday it blows me away. I am literally blessed with the opportunity to watch him learn before my eyes. Everyday he learns a little more and makes all kinds of improvements. What a privilege it has been to work with the little kiddo. As much as it boggles me how quickly I can become attached to someone....even a five year old, and as much as I am going to miss the little punk I'm glad that I've had the chance to work with him. He is five. In all honestly he is going to forget me. But I know that one day I will have the chance and the blessing to look for him in the eternities.
I also enjoy my co-workers. They are some pretty great people. I get to be a grown up sometimes and hang with the married college girls. They are all fantastic and I love Tuesday wings. They give great advice and are still accepting of my immature unmarried ways. There are also some pretty great college guys. That give me hope of a man working with children. They all do a great job. And oh what would I do without my little high school gang. Tyler and Spencer are going to have a great time at Utah State next year! (They picked a pretty great school) And Kylee and Nicole have some pretty great futures ahead of them as well. There was a time when I wasn't too excited for this job. How wrong I was! It has been such a great experience for me! I am so thankful for the things that it has taught me and for all of the people I've gotten to know and most of all for a little five year old boy who has taught me so much and changed the way I see things.
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